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Ever feel like the walls are closing in around you? Like youre world is crumbling like an overbaked cookie??? I am stuck somewhere between heaven and hell and I feel worthless. Nothing matters yet everything matters so fucking much. I dont know what to do. Everyone thinks Im so strong, when really, Im just a crumbling overbaked, chocolatechipless cookie. Cookies without chocolate chips are pointless. My life has a point, but I dont have enough time to reach it. And everyone is looking at me like Im some freaking 3 headed man in a cage. Sideshow. Pretty sideshow with the perfect life right?? Yea right. Im in love with the idea of not loving anyone who is able to get close. I love loneliness. Being alone. Taking comfort in knowing that I dont have to, or wont, comprimise with anyone else is beautiful. And yet, as a result of being alone for so long and avoiding human contact, the one time I really need someone no one is here. The world is blurring and theres no one here to save me. Not even my rockstars can save me now. No matter how much I love them.