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Kirsten is confused yet she knows exactly what she wants. Shes stuck in a rut, but shes going to dig herself out. She doesnt know how to get there just yet but she will. She misses her friends terribly, but is learning to live without them, even if it is slowly. Shes dependant on music to take all the negative crap away. Most times it does, but when it cant....dont go near her. She doesnt understand why nothing ever goes her way, yet everyone she knows thinks it does. She wants out, but doesnt know how to get there. She doesnt want to hear that she shouldnt drink, when everyone she knows drinks to excess, and she drinks on occasion. Everthings wrong and nothing feels right. She loves the limelight, but lost the way to it. Shes upset, yet she has so many things to be happy for. She cries, and select few see her tears. Shes a stage junkie. Shes a rebel who breaks the rules in a sly way and only when its called for. She needs her steven. She needs her dave, and she needs a life beyond her useless dream world