I dont know the words but Ill hum along

Sitting alone here wasting away, with nothing worth a dime to say. I have no life. I work, I come home, work, come home. I moved so that I could have a life. And now that I have moved, I still have no life, the scenery has just changed. I wonder if it will be this way forever. Me with no independance at all. I wish it were different. I wish I could just get up and walk away. But no, I need help with everything because I have no sense of direction and almost no sense of self. Did I ever know who I was, or was I simply what I wanted to believe I was. Who am I and what the hell is this. I should be in college. This wasnt supposed to work out like this. It was supposed to be different. Im good for nothing. I DONT GET IT. I had everything planned out and nothing worked out the way I wanted it to and now Im on a completely different path and I dont know how to veer off the road. Blah. Just shoot me, I dont have a reason anyway. The world is better off without me. I dont like it here. I want out. But I dont know where to go. UGH. I need to get on stage again. That was the place I knew who I was. Until it stabbed me in the back. How is it that you work for something your entire life, and then in one split second as soon as it falls into the hands of someone else it falls out from under you. crash bang boom fifteen years of hard work gone, this was all I had. And now I dont have it anymore and with it went my identity. I want my life back.